Hello, blogger friends! Remember me? I am still going to school. I hope to graduate in May, as I had to drop two courses before we went to Spain and Portugal this year. I was too sick to keep up with homework and the thought of staying up until 11:00 at night to attend Zoom classes after days of sightseeing and being with grandkids was too much! So, for once, I did what was best for me, rather than worry about being viewed as wimpy.
As you know, I have a new car. However, I’ve only driven it once to bring it home. The aftermath of my husband’s wreck has been an increase in my anxiety when I think of driving a car. It didn’t help when he told me that the police officers informed him they are called to about 50 crashes a week in our area! All of a sudden, I seem to see crashes everywhere, one with a car upside down in a ditch and first responders attempting to get the person out of the car.
Then, when you talk to people who have heard of the crash and ask about Douglas, they feel comfortable revealing all of the times they were hit or hit someone. I want to scream, “I don’t want to hear!” I know that it’s a little crazy to be this afraid, and as a Christian, I believe that when I get in the car, I am accompanied by angels driving with me and, when needed, for me. But, I am having a hard time, meaning I am paying for a car that sits in the garage.
So, like I have always done when fear seems overwhelming, I have to get out of this house and drive. I have not left the house but to attend church, mainly because I have a Sunday School class of people depending on me to show up. I preached for our pastor on November 3, so, I had to attend church, putting my anxieties aside.
When I enter my car, I pray that I will remain alert because I don’t want to hurt or inconvenience anyone by my actions. The new safety features can be distracting. For example, I regularly check to be sure the symbol is green which tells me I am keeping in the lane. Do I want to set the cruise control so I don’t exceed the speed limit? What is that ping or beep? Am I doing something wrong?
So, Monday is the date for renewing my relationship with Ms. Essy, which is what I have named my Chevrolet Equinox. It’s time I let go of fear and hold on to my faith. Pray with me because it’s unhealthy to remain in the house and be afraid. We need to be with other people as we age for good health. The senior center is less than five miles away.
I will keep you informed.
Help from Heaven 
I never in a million years would think of you as wimpy! You have accomplished so much with so many roadblocks in your life. Don’t forget that God has told us in his word 365 times not to be afraid–one for each day! Praying for you, my friend, to be courageous in this as you have been in so many ways in your life. ~Andrea
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