False Alarm, Thankfully!

I went to bed Friday with a fever and woke up with a higher fever. I freaked out, admittedly. I was so scared, not so much of dying from the virus, but of suffering in a hospital for weeks, due to my compromised immune system.

Ever since I survived colon cancer, any time something feels out of kilter, I stress regarding the cancer returning. Then, add my vulnerability to this new threat, including heart disease and diabetes, albeit well-managed diabetes, and you can imagine that I didn’t sleep well over the weekend.

I spent the weekend in sheer terror, but still writing my blog and grading assignments, to calm myself down and not start running up and down the cul-de-sac screaming or rushing to the nearest emergency room. But, then, the sensible side of me shook me real good and got my attention. I turned off the news, sat still, and took stock of the situation.

My face hurt and my nose was running. I had no breathing issues, and just a little dry cough. Then, I asked myself, “Have you felt this way before?” And the answer was yes, when I had an upper respiratory infection.

I went online and made an appointment with the doctor for 7:45am this morning. Around 7:00, the office called, and because of my age and the fact that I had other conditions, the visit was virtual, to protect me.

I set up my cell phone, and through the miracle of technology, had a visit that assured me that I had a sinus infection. I had to take my own blood pressure, as we have the machine here for Douglas, and I took my temperature. She sent a prescription for antibiotics to my pharmacy, and with a twinkle in my eyes, I am a happy woman.

I am thankful that I don’t have the Coronavirus, but I was dismayed at the level of fear that the fever generated in me. I am a woman of faith in God Almighty. I believe that the Lord is with me wherever I go. I also am confident of my eternal home in Heaven.

Yet, I trembled at the thought of ventilators and IV’s and missing my children and husband that having this virus would cause. I have been making Douglas take a bath and wash his hands when he comes home from work each night. He can be hard-headed about a lot of things, but in regards to this phenomenon, even Douglas takes no chances with my health.

That may be why I am so hyper-vigilant, as he keeps saying that I would die, so he has to be extra careful. That refrain resounds in my heart and mind so much that I am afraid of my own shadow, cleaning the door handles and Lysol spraying sinks and tubs and stairs.

But, today, as I sit here writing, I have decided that it is time to let go of the fear and just live my life, because tomorrow is not promised to me, virus or no virus. I can’t allow myself to stop functioning over what might happen. None of us leave this world alive, and as the oldest member of my family, I know that my time isn’t that far away.

So, I’m going to enjoy life. When the sinus infection is better, I will go for long walks, taking precautions, as I have enough education about the disease not go around without a mask. I don’t plan to get my hair cut or go to the gym, until we have better testing. I was advised that if the univrsity returns to in-class courses in the Fall, I shouldn’t work, unless there has been a vaccine found that works.

I am going to only think on real problems, not phantom ones. Those what-might-happen troubles will cause you unnecessary pain and worry.

Fandango prompt is Education. Ragtag prompt is Twinkle. Word of the Day Challenge is Hard-headed. Your Daily Prompt is Resound. The Daily Spur prompt is Bath.

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  1. Amen, so true: “Those what-might-happen troubles will cause you unnecessary pain and worry.” I am so grateful you were able to speak with your Doctor, and that you are not dealing with covid-19. We do have to be careful, but you are so right, that our futures are held with God. Blessings and prayers for you today.

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  2. Regina, glad you had virtual visit with your doctor and got an antibiotic prescription. Loved how you changed your thoughts. I used to deal with many fears including driving over high bridges and falling over the edge. Everything changed when I took fear captive and told it to go in the name of Jesus. Then I memorized a couple verses in the Bible such as Psalm 91 which talks of dwelling in tve shadow of the Almoghty and not feating the pestlence that stalks in darkness or the arrows that fly by day. The perfect love of Jesus casts out all fear. I think about how he loves me and is always with me. Now I can drive over high bridges without going 10 mph. You are much loved! Thank you for your post. 💕❤️❤️❤️

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